It has been almost two months of being a mother, and I am still often clueless about whether my child’s tummy is full or not. Feeding issues have been a part and parcel of the journey of motherhood for me, right from the start.
Many a time, after I feed Bubboo, I am struck with a doubt as to whether she has had enough or not. On rare occasions, after a feed, she is happy and gurgly, leaving me in no doubts about the satisfaction of her hunger. At other times, she lets out little screams every now and then, often quietened by cuddling or the changing of her diaper. At some other times, she is quiet for a while after a feed but then starts crying inconsolably, only to be satisfied by the giving of more milk.
All of this has been a harrowing experience for me. More often than not, I end up wishing I could know exactly how much milk has gone into her tummy, while breastfeeding.
The confused and frustrated mother in me has this question – The system of reproduction is complicated enough. Why did God have to make such a complicated feeding structure for babies, on top of that? Why can’t there be a light somewhere on a baby, which turns green when she is hungry and turns red when she is full?
I tell this to the OH, and I am greeted with bouts of uncontrollable laughter. Poor me, no?