And just like that…

…. a journey in my life comes to an end today. So far, today has been feeling like any other ordinary day, but deep inside, I know it is not. Life is going to be different tomorrow onwards. It’s just that the fact hasn’t completely sunk in yet.

OK, before I confuse you people any further, here is what I am talking about. I, along with most members of our Bangalore office, lost my job last week. The reason? Restructuring, we were told. It hurt, we winced internally, but sat through the seemingly endless meetings and listened to bombshells being thrown at us. I had been anticipating this to some extent, but hadn’t been expecting it to happen so soon. We were offered severance packages, and asked to… move on, in polite words, in a week’s time. My heart broke when I saw the plight of some of my male colleagues, one of whom has just had a baby! Sigh! The harsh realities of corporate life!

This whole incident largely put a bitter twinge in my heart. And it definitely put me in a better light of who’s how. I got to hear a lot of BS, but also got to see a lot of sweetness from totally unexpected corners. I became a writhing mass of emotions, laughing and tearing up at the slightest provocations. The OH, being the OH, asked me to just chill out and not think too much, but that didn’t stop me from thinking. 🙂

In the midst of all the gloom, however, there has been a silver lining. It is a very faint lining, but is there nonetheless. And that is: Some of us were offered positions with a client of ours, in the same or in a slightly higher capacity. I took up the offer. The role sounded exciting, and the organization sounded like a dream company to me. There are a lot of challenges to be faced, though – the first and foremost one being that I will now need to travel around 50 km. every day to and from my new office. I don’t know how the new workplace is going to be, or if I will get adjusted to the staff already existing there, but from what I saw and heard, I felt it was a people-friendly company. I felt I will be able to balance my life and career there, something which was not possible in this organization. This organization has given me a lot, taught me a lot, but has also taken away a lot. For every smile it has given me, it has also caused a furrow on my forehead. So, I am sad, but also happy to be moving on. However, I don’t think I would have quit, if I were not asked to. I know I am contradicting myself, but that’s how it is. This job and organization were well-suited to the OH and me in a lot of ways. I have thought of quitting often, in fits of frustration, but have never actually done it. Always, I have thought of the pros and the cons and decided against it.

So, that is that. Today is my last day in this organization. This was the first job I took up after shifting to Bangalore, so it will always be special. I join my new office from Monday onwards. I stand on the brink of a change now, with no idea of how things are going to turn out for me here on out, with a lot of mixed feelings traversing inside me. It’s a kind of frustrated-angry-hopeful-happy-sad mix, that I don’t really know how to describe. I don’t know if I have made a good decision yet. Time will tell, I guess…

Do wish me good luck and send your prayers my way, as I embark on a new journey, will ya? I need all your good vibes, hugs and cheer.

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26 thoughts on “And just like that…

  1. Im a bit late to comment here.But as the saying goes better late than never 🙂
    I know how you must be feeling about this sudden change but believe in yourself and everything will work out just fine.

    Cheers to new beginnings!
    And dont say…a journey ends…….Always say …….a new journey begins!!Best wishes to you and hope you enjoy your new place of work every bit and more!

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    1. @Tanz

      Thank you for the sound advice. I have been trying to stick to it. 🙂
      Yes, I understand the journey ended so that another new journey could begin. But then, I was feeling nostalgic and mixed, and so, this post came out. 🙂

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  2. Hi,

    I have been reading your blog for a while and may I say that I really like it.. I can relate with lots of posts.

    Good luck in your new journey.. Have you written about your domain of work? I was just wondering about nature/field of your work.

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    1. @Shruti

      Hey, Shruti! Am so glad you like my posts, and can relate to them. Welcome to my space. 🙂

      Thanks for the good wishes.

      No, I don’t think I have written much about my field of work. I work as a content writer/editor.

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  3. I don’t know where my previous comment went 😦 Anyways may be it is signal to embrace the new change. I am sure it will bring a lot of learning, fun and happiness along. Good luck and loads of good vibes are wished for you.

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  4. Sometimes these things come as blessings in disguise. Change is good, and from the sound of it you’re an optimistic and cheerful person, so here’s wishing you all the luck on the new phase 🙂

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  5. Hugs and best of wishes! A people-friendly place sounds fun and exciting for a new job. That was a wonderful silver-lining indeed 🙂 I sincerely hope you have the best experiences and get to learn a lot!

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  6. I’m glad there was a silver lining to losing your job. Like you said, harsh realities of corporate lives these days.

    I wish you good luck, good vibes and lots of positivity. From one ex-traveler to another current-traveler, I wish you a lot of strength to bear the 50km journey 🙂

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    1. @SnS

      Thank you so much. 🙂
      I am glad there was a silver lining too. Silver lining is better than no lining. 😛 OK bad joke!
      I know I will need all the strength I can muster to travel those 50 km every day. Day after day after day after day. 😐 I wonder if I will ever get used to it.

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  7. Well I been in one of those situation initially when i came to uk, I had baught the house on 8th of the month and 19th of the month i got made redundant , the whole world collapsed I did not know what to do , had a 90,000K debt on my head ..
    but slowly somehow managed through , got another job and here I am telling you .. not to worry .. All the best to the new beginning and I am sure you will do great in their too ..

    All the best 🙂 and keep smiling

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    1. @Bikram

      Thank you so much, Bikram. 🙂
      It is heartening to know that a lot of people have been in the same boat as me, and brought it to land safely and efficiently. 🙂
      I don’t mind restructuring in corporates. I just wish it could be done with a little more heart, considering people as people and not machines or pieces of worthless junk.

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  8. I kind of knew from the first line what was coming cause I had read your comment on some blog about changing the job…

    cheers to the new beginning,new life,new corporate family 🙂

    Have a good time and good luck 🙂

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